Why I Left The Money Behind And Turned To Upwork

  • John Kane

    Mar 23, 2019

From the earliest I could remember, all I ever wanted to do was become rich…

I wanted the flashy cars, the gigantic mansions, the private jets, and boy, did I want the girls…

But on top of all that, I wanted to prove all the bullies wrong from my childhood that told me consistently I was a loser with a giant head who would never amount to anything.

I wanted to help my parents out and put them up in a big ol’ house of their own, and make sure they never had to work again.

And most of all, I wanted to be the very, very best at something. I wanted to be the Michael Jordan of my craft…

I was so dead set on this concept at such an early age, that I chose Jordan as my Confirmation name in order to make my middle name Michael Jordan…

By the time I turned 21, I was making over $100,000 a month, sometimes even $20,000 in a single day…

I had the Mercedes, the mansion, I flew first class, rented $20 million dollar homes in La Jolla and Miami, dated models…

I proved all the bullies wrong, in fact, they now praised me and asked me how the heck I did it…

I had gotten exactly what I wanted, but I was absolutely miserable, and I hated the fact that the only reason people were attracted to me now was because I had money.

I lost sight of the two biggest reasons why I wanted to be rich in the first place…

I did things for my family, but not as much as I could have, and I stopped learning and perfecting my craft outside of the daily work I was doing.

From that time forward, I went through a very long battle against my own personal demons, or my sub-conscious. My mind was going crazy at this point…

“Why the hell am I not happy, I thought that this was going to make me happy?”

“Is this person actually trying to be my friend or are they just trying to use me for my money?”

So many different things ran through my head, and I became totally paralyzed by my own sub-conscious.

I would consistently have negative self-talk in my head, especially when I knew I could be doing more than I was doing. I hated the feeling of not moving forward, of not learning anything new, even though every day thousands of dollars were hitting my bank account.

At this point, I turned to books. I started reading almost a book a day, trying to figure out what the hell was wrong with me…

Every book seemed to come at just the right moment. I’m sure you’ve had that feeling too, where you read the first chapter of a book and you get so excited that it’s speaking directly to the problem you were just trying to solve in your own life. Then you end up reading it in a day because every word seems to be speaking directly to you.

My mind seemed to get clearer and clearer with every book I would read. I would become less and less confused, and more and more in control of my own sub-conscious.

It was such an invigorating feeling… Being able to control my own mind. Being able to control my emotions and the way I felt about different experiences.

It was especially cool when I realized I could go back to my childhood memories that had traumatized me and completely change the way I looked at them, and therefore change the meaning behind that event. I could turn terrible experiences into positive life-long lessons.

I started connecting the dots of my own life and started to realize… Holy shit, I’m a prophet. Just kidding!

Seriously though, I started to realize I was put on this earth to do something very special. I had always felt that I was going to do something big, but now I was starting to really know it and believe it.

I just had no idea what I was going to do, and I still don’t know exactly. But Upwork helped me realize what my life-long craft was going to be… Which skill I was going to dedicate the rest of my life to being the best at…

In June of 2018, I took their Internet Marketing test, and received 1st Place out of 80,000+ freelancers. (Now over 90,000)

When I took the test and first looked at the 1st Place badge, I was shocked and just stared at it like, “No way, this must be some sort of glitch.”

But once it fully sunk in, I instantly re-gained a ton of confidence in myself. My sub-conscious stopped calling me a loser and it started calling me the man…

I started to believe in myself again, and I started to believe that being the best was actually a possibility. That it was within my grasp…

And through books, I came to realize just how important it is to actually believe that your goals are within your reach…

I also came to understand that I am most happy when I am in the moment of doing what I love. Specifically when I am given a new Internet Marketing-related challenge, and I believe that overcoming the challenge is a real possibility.

That is the main reason why I was drawn to Upwork…

I wanted to find new challenges, and learn new business models, and become the most well-rounded and versatile Internet Marketer in the world.

I wanted to meet new people and become friends with like-minded business people. For years, I lived in isolation behind a computer screen with no actual human interaction and I knew that needed to change.

I wanted to see what I was truly capable of after mastering the Internet Marketing craft over the past 13 years of my life…

You see, I know how powerful this stuff really is, and I’ve experienced how life-changing it can be when you deploy all of the pieces of the puzzle correctly.

Internet Marketing has been my own personal money printer for many years, and I love the challenge of finding out how to create an “Internet Marketing Money Printer” if you will, for other people’s businesses.

I’ve worked with a lot of small-time mom and pop shops and have successfully helped them on a small scale.

I was helping brick and mortar businesses open eCommerce channels for their businesses and helped turn those eCommerce stores into money printers…

I was creating high-converting funnels for service businesses to bring in profitable leads, which basically turned the funnel into a money printer for them…

The idea of being able to take a dollar, and turn it into two or more dollars, was even more exhilarating when I was doing it for other people’s businesses as compared to doing it for myself.

It was fun for a while, but I knew I was capable of managing multi-million dollar budgets… Not $60,000 budgets for the entire year like most of my clients with Upside.

Which is why I decided to work on Upwork for the next couple years in hopes of finding opportunities to work with big, multi-million dollar organizations…

And in turn learn how to run those businesses so that when I do decide to launch new businesses again… I’m much more prepared with much more knowledge and experience.

Plus, I get to do what I love, and for the past few weeks that I’ve been working on Upwork on different projects… I’ve finally been truly happy again.

The best part is… I understand why I’m happy:

  1. I’m doing work that I love, that’s new, and that’s challenging.
  2. I have hope for my future and my goals are seemingly within my reach.
  3. Every day, I feel like I’ve made progress forward in my own personal development.

I can’t say any of those things have been true consistently for the past 3-4 years of my life, but they are now, and I’m going to do everything I possibly can to keep it that way.

I believe that as long as I keep doing what I’m doing, eventually I’m going to be put in a position again where I have the opportunity to make a big impact in some way…

And that’s all I really want. I want to stamp my name in the history books in a positive way. I can care less about the money because all it does is confuses things and I know that it will come on it’s own as long as I provide as much value to the world as I possibly can.

Conclusion

If you’ve made it this far, thank you so much for listening.

My goal with this blog is to make an impact on people’s lives by being as transparent as I possibly can about my own journey through life.

I am never going to charge for my content, and I am going to give you all of my best stuff for free.

Of course, a lot of stuff will be related to internet marketing and I will teach you everything I know about it…

But I want to tell people my story because I believe it will help them avoid some of the mistakes I’ve made in their own journey to success.

That’s what’s most important to me, and instead of waiting until the end of my life to write a biography… I figure it would be way more interesting to just tell the story as it unfolds.

So here’s to the beginning of something special, my friends. Until next time…

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